And like a deer in the headlights, I meet my fate

I've always believed in fate, 

but at the same time,

I've always been completely faithless.

Fate is the reason I am where I am,

 so I would like to say.

Not my fate in God or people, 

that's nonexistent,

but my fate in that life has chosen our paths,

 and every small thing you do 

shapes your life towards your fate,

how it is supposed to be.

I've recently started to question this 

unbelievable thing called fate 

and I just feel like I'm going to burn it to ashes. 

Pure genius

Disconnected from the world again 

And no, the sun don't shine in the place I've been  

So, why you keep acting like I don't exist?

Yeah, I feel like I'm ready to die, 

but I can't commit

So I ask myself, when will I learn?

I'd set myself on fire to feel the burn

I'm scared that I'm never gonna be repaired

Put me out of my misery

My mind, it feels like an archenemy

Can't look me in the eyes

I don't know what hurts the most, 

holding on or letting go

Relieving my memories, 

and they killing me one by one 

        

I didn't know what love was until your light seeped into my world

Wondering how long can you ignore me?

How long can you ignore what is between us?

It's hard being the only one who's available, 

in every level, in every manner.

Deep inside, I wish I could stop time. 

You would be mine and only mine.

For as long as eternity last.

It is hard to be the one that's available, 

when you haven't even made your

feelings that comprehensible.